It was true that I didn't know how to write. I still believe that I can't write, or at least not to the standards of my peers. For most days, I had to be taken out of class to attend ESL, and then after that, I would have to leave school to take ESL assessments to determine if I was capable enough and on the same level as my peers.
For most people, writing comes naturally, with words that come together to create a harmony that sounds like the work of authors and writers. It almost comes out as jealousy, but in reality, it's just a realization that what I have isn't good, and there is room for improvement.
Essays or any writing, as it might seem from my previous statement, isn't my strongest suit. On my second draft for a college essay, each time I read it, there is something that could be changed. Constant improvement is what I've come to realize is why other people's essays are so great; they have received feedback and acted upon it. A pith we learned is a pivotal moment where sudden realization comes or a lesson is learned. My writing journey began when I started failing. This was good, I could get feedback and become better than the last time. (That sounds so cliche...and dumb).
But what if this time I fail, and my inability to write a proper-sounding essay is what sets me back? As I look around, even the people I would never expect to write anything of significance are writing so beautifully that I can't even fathom it.
Looking back, is the ability to follow prompts and to follow a rubric and score a hundred because you were able to successfully articulate an idea and able to comprehend the specific ideas and relay them onto a paper showing that you are capable of writing, yes. But... I don't have any buts. Until then, my focus on writing is to be able to pass my thoughts into words in a way that will "WOW" my readers.
College essays are usually where people can brag about themselves in a professional way that doesn't boost their ego too much, but is impressive. I feel like mine has exposed who I am and the constant improvements that need to be made. But still shows some of my accomplishments.
